A Travel Essay from the Inner Journey

I’ve been working with my Gene Keys for over three years now, and I fall more in love with my chart every day. I feel as if I have the best chart! Does everyone feel this way, I wonder? Just look at the Gifts and Siddhis I have … Dynamism, Liberation, Perseverance, Honour, Authority, Valour, Resourcefulness, and the Siddhi I want to tell you about today … Wisdom! And that is just my Activation Sequence! I also have Freedom, Illumination, Awakening and Universal Love! I mean, does it get any better than that?! I don’t think so.

I have been contemplating my Purpose Siddhi of Wisdom for weeks now, as I rest in the gap between the Activation Sequence and the Venus stream. Of course, once the Sage’s Golden Path Retreat recommences in a couple of weeks, I will still be travelling with this juicy Gene Key 48, but then of course, I’ll be looking at it through the lens of the Venus Sequence and relationships.

I love that I get to revel in this Gene Key for weeks and months on end; it is like marinating myself in a rich, aromatic jus. The meat on the bones of this Gene Key gets more tender, and tastier, the longer I contemplate it. And let’s face it, this is my Purpose key, I’m going to be contemplating this for the rest of my life.

So, what is this Siddhi of Wisdom all about? And of course, to answer that question would take a lifetime. But, for the purpose of this essay, I’ll try to keep it brief!

Trust … Always it Comes Back to Trust

I think the key here is trust. Isn’t it always?! Throughout this journey, as I have travelled my Golden Path again and again, my contemplations, my writing, and my heart always come back to trust. It weaves through all the Gene Keys, spheres, lines and pathways of my chart … I must trust myself; I must trust the work.

This Sage’s journey of the last four or five months has been one of deep trust. My Sage words … interiority, sincerity, reconsideration … drew me into deeper and deeper trust. And now here I am, in the Purpose sphere, the very root of the whole chart, the root of me, and the Sage word here is affinity.

I have an affinity for this work, so trusting it is easy.

And nowhere is that trust going to be more important than right here, in my Purpose Siddhi. 

Wisdom … my gift from the gods, my source of healing, the key to my transformation. This Siddhi invites me to shed my self-doubt. It invites me to let go and leap off the cliff. It invites me to dive deep into myself, and trust that everything will be perfect.

This Siddhi of Wisdom is the taproot that brings all the healing up into my life, it brings all the nourishment I need. It connects me to the earth. It connects me to all living beings. It connects me to the collective unconscious.

My Purpose Siddhi is a kaleidoscope of colour and light, an infinitely changing landscape that opens up inside me. It is at once solid like the rock beneath my feet, and fluid like the rivers and the sea. My Purpose Siddhi is my connection to mother earth, to nature, to the elements. It’s my connection to life itself.

And I am anchored here. I am steady. I am safe.

I am full of life, and I am the empty void.

I am everything, and everything is me.

“You are Here to Embrace Your Siddhi of Wisdom”

I have known for over three years now that my Purpose Siddhi is Wisdom. I have gone through my Activation Sequence four times and worked deeply with my Purpose Gene Key. But it was not until this turn around the wheel of my chart with the Sage, that I feel as if I truly embraced this Siddhi of Wisdom.

It has been there, a glowing ball of possibility, for over three years; an aspiration; an ideal to aim for.

But it always felt somewhat out of reach, as all the Siddhis do.

How can I, an ordinary woman, claim Wisdom?!

How dare I, an ordinary human, even think that I can tap into this, or any of my Siddhis?!

These are the realms of realised, awakened beings; these Siddhis are the stuff of legends and gods, heroes and magic.

But these Sage teachings have opened me up in a way I never opened before, like a puzzle box where one click, one turn, one position in space can change everything and open to the next layer of treasure hidden within.

There were the Sage word and line, the Sutra, the Contemplation, the Mythos. These were all life altering; new vistas opened before me. I felt as if the Sage line ushered me into a whole new chapter of my life.

And then I read the words …

“Your higher Purpose is in your beautiful ordinariness”

and everything changed!

I CAN embrace this Gene Key in its entirety.

I can allow, accept and embrace the Shadow.

I can crack it open to reveal and celebrate and embrace the Gift … I OWN my Resourcefulness. It is ME. I am it.

And now, in these days of sitting with my Siddhi of Wisdom, I am finally able to fully embrace it too. It is no longer a lofty ideal I hope to glimpse the edges of … it is right here in the centre of my ordinariness.

It is me.

I am this Siddhi of Wisdom.

I just have to surrender to life, to the void, the unknown, and allow the Wisdom to embrace me as I embrace it.

Wisdom as a Primal State

Wisdom is the primal state of not knowing that emerges from the complete relaxation of mind and body in response to life.
Richard Rudd, The Sage’s Golden Path Retreat

I feel as if this complete relaxation Richard is talking about here is exactly what is happening to me as I fall deeper into this Purpose sphere and Gene Key. I feel as if I am letting go of so much that my mind clung onto. The need for answers. The need for fixes, and resolutions. 

It is not just that I have shed so many layers of pain and suffering to get here; it is not just that I have left behind a trail of false beliefs and accumulated facts. All those things that tied me to the world of the known have gradually been melting off of my bones as I have walked deeper into myself.

But more than all that, there has been a glorious re-cloaking of myself, but this time in a skin that fits me. Like the Selkie, slipping back into her sealskin so that she can return to the sea, I am reclothing myself in the right skin, so that I can swim in the sea of the unknown.

It has all been leading here.

This journey of the Gene Keys, this journey into my interior, which began almost 30 years ago was leading here, to this place, this time, this experience.

And this place is the edge of the ocean, where the river of my life meets the vast ocean of the unknown. I slip on the sealskin and I dive in.

An Epic Journey

Primal is the perfect word to describe the way I feel right now. This epic journey of the Sage’s Activation Sequence has brought me to this primal place of rebirth.

I am here to dive into the heart of my not knowing. 

I am ready to step onto the next part of my path.

I feel as if I have gone through initiation after initiation. I feel as if I have walked through fire to get here.

I feel a primal howl coming up from my belly, like the wolf who howls at the moon. 

I feel as if I am reborn … new … ready.

This has been a long road, with many trials, but I am here on the threshold of tomorrow.

A new world awaits, and I am ready.

I am painted with marks of courage.

I am armed with love. I am ready.

The photographs I used for this essay are almost all of white wildflowers. I love photographing wildflowers, and once I’d chosen the photo of the daisies at the top of this post, choosing white flowers for the rest of it felt right somehow. Until I came to the part where I talked about Selkies!! Then I had to share one of my photographs of seals in Scotland.

You can see more of my photographs on my Flickr page.