Rowan’s story continues from The Silver Thread and The Girl Who Fell Between Worlds, where Rowan’s fall allowed her to see the hidden world beneath her ordinary life.

As Rowan recovers inside the Hearth-house, the living board turns backward. It begins showing her the losses and changing loyalties that shaped her final weeks in the village before her fall—and the fearful belief Spider is beginning to weave from them.

New to Rowan’s story? Begin with the introduction and opening episodes.


Morning entered the Hearth-house slowly, a pale line around the curtain beside Rowan’s bed. Her head ached when she opened her eyes, so she closed them again.

Someone had left water within reach. Someone else had tucked the blanket so carefully around her feet that she suspected Mother. The wheels were still. The horses shifted outside. Her brothers spoke in whispers that were somehow louder than their ordinary voices.

Above the foot of her bed, the game-board waited.

The gold and silver pieces were quiet now. Spider sat beneath one corner, drawing in the loose strands of her web one at a time. Vale stood by the window with her mist-wings folded close, present but not reaching for Rowan.

The faceless girl still held her tiny flame and road. During the night she had pointed the road toward the door. Now she turned it around.

The road pointed backward, and Rowan understood that the board was taking her into what had already happened.

The board tipped, and the room filled with the smell of wet leaves and dog fur.

Her young dog bounded across the clearing, all paws and joy, chasing a stick the youngest brother had thrown badly. Rowan laughed. The dog vanished behind the Hearth-house.

Then the board moved forward one square.

The clearing was empty. A broken length of leather lay near the trees, and tracks led from it toward the road. Father followed them as far as he could. Mother called the dog’s name again and again until her voice grew weak. No one found him.

A silver dog-shaped piece appeared on the board, but it would not settle. It ran to one edge, then another, always just beyond Rowan’s reach.

Spider touched the piece with one careful leg. At once a hundred threads flew outward. He escaped. He was taken. He is hurt. He is waiting. You should have kept him safe.

Vale’s wings opened, but she did not carry Rowan away. She only moved nearer.

Rowan let herself miss him without solving where he had gone.

The board turned again.

Now Rowan stood at the edge of the school’s little stage while other students were placed in front of the brightest lanterns. She had been given three lines and a basket to carry. She said the lines well. She carried the basket beautifully. But every part of her wanted to step farther into the light and be given more to do.

On the board, a silver girl-piece with carved curly hair stepped toward the center. The board trembled, and the piece slid quietly back to the edge.

Spider began a new thread. If they do not choose you, perhaps there is nothing to choose.

Before Spider’s thread could tighten around the memory, a note sounded beyond the remembered school walls.

One voice joined it, then another.

The school stage dissolved, and Rowan was singing in the choir at the House of Bright Voices. She was not at the edge or the center. She was inside the song. Her voice did not disappear among the others. Somehow, singing with them made her feel more like herself.

The silver thread rose from the board and passed through every singer. No single voice owned the music. No voice had to become smaller for harmony to happen.

For a moment Spider stopped spinning.

Then the choir memory faded. A hard knock sounded at the remembered Hearth-house door, and the board turned once more.

Two village men stood outside. They did not remove their hats. Mother’s flame drew narrow and white. Father listened while they spoke on behalf of those who blamed him for the conflict that had divided the town, the decision he had helped carry out and the position he would no longer hold.

Rowan did not understand every part of it. She understood the men’s faces. She understood the silence that followed them down the steps. Father was usually the person who knew what to do. Now the village blamed him for doing it.

After that, people’s greetings changed. Conversations ended when the family entered a shop. Children repeated words they had heard at their own tables. The Hearth-house had not moved, but the village had begun placing it outside the circle.

On the living board, Father’s gold piece stood in the center. In the dim light it looked almost like plain wood, while the village pieces turned their backs.

Spider’s eight legs trembled. For once she did not spin a hundred possibilities. She gathered the whole memory into one sentence.

When one of us stands out, all of us can be cast out.

The sentence caught in her web and held there.

Rowan looked toward Vale. Mist gathered at the edges of the room, but Vale did not open the path to Elsewhere.

I can stay, Vale said. If you can.

Rowan wanted to follow Vale into the mist. Vale had carried her away once before, catching the part of her that could not bear the fall. Every part of Rowan remembered that relief and knew how much easier it would be not to feel the room, the village or Father standing alone before it. The path to Elsewhere had already begun to feel familiar.

She gripped the blanket in one hand and reached for the cup beside her bed with the other. The wood beneath her fingers was real. The cup was cool. Her head hurt. She could hear Father at the harness outside, Mother opening and closing the Hearth-house cupboards nearby, and her brothers arguing softly about which stones belonged in the traveling box.

For one breath, Rowan stayed inside the room, inside the Hearth-house and inside herself. Then another. The mist tugged at the edges, and staying did not feel brave or magical. It felt difficult.

Slowly, the Hearth-house returned around her.

The family was leaving in a week or two. Rowan had thought they were simply choosing another road.

Now she understood that the village had already begun taking this place away from them.

The faceless piece lifted its road. One end pointed back toward the school, the missing dog, the forest Rowan loved and Father standing alone before the village. The other pointed toward a place Rowan had never seen.

The silver thread ran through both.

Exile, Rowan thought.

Possibility, the board replied.


Rowan’s journey will continue as more memories from ages fifteen through twenty-one find their way onto the living board.


This continuing fairytale grows from my memories and Gene Keys contemplation with the help of an AI-assisted editor. You can read more about my process in the opening post.


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Meghan is living a delicious life in the mountains of Idaho with her beloved & her fur family. Her days are filled with walks in the woods, art journaling in her art hut and doing the inner work with her bff Lizzie and their fractal at Gene Keys Unleashed (where they are guides).

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