A Travel Essay from the Inner Journey

The more you learn to embody open-hearted intimacy, the more refined the frequency of your Attractor field becomes.

Sage’s Golden Path Retreat

As I approach the end of my contemplations of my Attraction sphere in the Sage’s Golden Path Retreat, I have been basking in the energy of my Siddhi of Impeccability (I have Gene Key 62.6 here, with it’s glorious Siddhi of Impeccability).

The Attraction Sphere is the second Gene Key in the Venus Sequence. Open-heartedness is a keystone of this whole Venus journey. I’ve known that all along. This description of open-hearted intimacy as being connected to a “more refined frequency of my Attractor field” is a clarion call to remember just how important open-heartedness is!

My heart must be open, and I must not only be available for intimacy, but I must also invite it in, in a way that is comfortable for me. I must be open to the possibility of new forms of intimacy. Intimacy with my words. Intimacy with what I share. Intimacy with people face to face.

I must not be afraid. All the Gene Keys work I have done in the last three and a half years has led me here, so I know that I am safe to be intimate.

Embracing Deeper Levels of Self-acceptance and Forgiveness

The journey of the last few years has been a continual unfolding of myself. Like some magical flower, I have opened, petal by petal, to reveal deeper layers of myself. Some petals unfurl to reveal a wound that still needs tending, and I am able to pour love onto it.

Some petals unfurl to reveal jewels hidden in their folds … self-love; self-acceptance; and trust, that startling jewel that lights all around it with a hidden fire.

Forgiveness is found there too, in the tender heart of the flower. Forgiveness for myself, allowing me to relax and release shame and guilt. Forgiveness for others, softening my edges and allowing me to offer love instead of blame.

The more I can soften towards myself, the easier it becomes to unfurl the petals of my heart. The soft, yielding way may sound slow, but it is the fastest way to love.

And I have to love myself … ALL of myself … in this season of my life, if I want to keep on unfurling and revealing more of myself.

A closed bud, while it may hold the charm of a promise of beauty to come, is not giving its nectar and pollen to the birds and insects, it’s not filling the air with its delicious scent. It is full of potential, yes, but it is not sharing its fulsome beauty. I cannot stay a closed bud. I cannot even stay the full and fecund flower. For petals must fall so that seeds may fly. I have to accept and embrace where I am. Now is the time for a full unfolding of my petals. This Venus sequence is my season of full-blown blossoming.

Imagine the Purest Form of Relationship

As part of the Venus Sequence, we are invited to imagine what the purest form of relationship might feel like. Oh, how I loved this exercise!! You see, I am lucky enough to glimpse this quality in my life every single day, because I just happen to be in a relationship with the love of my life, and that is pretty damn perfect, I can tell you!

So, here goes …

A Love Story within a Story

The purest form of relationship for me stands on the pillars of love, trust and respect.

Love … this is unconditional love. There is complete acceptance here. No taking things personally. No feeling judged or judgement of the other. Complete acceptance of each other exactly as we are.

Love that feels as if we are in total harmony. We sing the same song. We breathe in sync. We can talk for hours, days, decades, yet we are completely comfortable in each other’s silence.

We feel our hearts opening to each other as a physical sensation in our chests. We cherish each other. We long for each other, yet there is no neediness or expectation. We unblock each other’s joy pipes.

Trust … we trust each other completely. Our hearts are safe in the other’s hands. We are safe. This love is the ultimate trust fall. We fall into each other and know that we will be caught in the other’s arms. We are safe to be completely and naturally ourselves.

We trust each other with our dreams and with our Shadows. We practice radical honesty.

And there is absolute fidelity. This trust is innate in the relationship, the love so pure, that unfaithfulness is not an option. We could no more betray each other than raise a hand to strike the other.

We stand naked before each other and know that no matter how deep our Shadows and our fears, we are absolutely safe.

Respect … we are simpatico. We share the same likes and preferences of lifestyle. We are in step with each other. And we are perfectly balanced. But we are also independent beings, each respecting the other’s need for space.

We know that our roots need space to grow. We support each other in our growth. And even if we each have different beliefs, likes, needs, we can still flow together with no judgement.

We are two perfectly contained beings, who together make a whole that is so much greater than we could ever have imagined. There is no hierarchy, no power struggle, no control.

As well as the love, trust and respect, there is harmony, equality, fairness and balance. We are the most perfect dance partners in life, with a love that connects us on a deep intuitive level, so that we always know the right next step; we always know when to hold each other close and sway to gentle love songs, and when to allow the other to spin free, ecstatic with the rhythm of life.

We love all the moods of our music. We love the closeness and softness of the ballad and the dynamism of the Dervish whirls.

We are in step with each other. And we know that our song is the music of two hearts with one longing … to love and be loved.

We are in perfect harmony with the romance of life. We are the love we came here to be.

My Siddhi of Impeccability

The Woodpecker, which is the Dream Arc creature for this Siddhi, asks, what is the truest path to transcendence? That is the inner truth beyond the grasp of the Intellect that Impeccability invites me into. That is the key to unlocking the power of this life … to always ask, “What is the truest path for me to take right now?” in every moment. To ask myself, “What would Universal Love do? What would my intuition do?” Not my mind. Not all the facts and the data.

I only need to lean into the truth of my heart.

Impeccability is truly the heart leading the way. Impeccability doesn’t need the Intellect at all, because love is the only answer to every question; but Impeccability loves the Intellect, in the way it loves every aspect of myself.

So, no matter the situation, or obstacle, or difficulty in front of me, the only way through is to let my heart lead me, and to never doubt the things it whispers to me in the silence and in the stillness, in the gaps and in the pauses.

Impeccable Actions Emerge from the Pure Intelligence of Life

I believe that the “pure intelligence of life” that the Gene Keys refers to is love. So, if Impeccability comes from pure love, that brings me back to the question, “What would Universal Love do?”.

In every situation, if I pause and ask myself this question, then the answer is always going to be pure intelligence, unadulterated, uncorrupted by my ideas, by my victimhood, by blame or shame.

It is because I am coming from a place of love, that I will be able to find and wield the perfect words in every situation. I am honing my word craft with this inner work. I am seeking words and sentences that flow together, that are sweet and slow-moving, like honey. I also seek words that are single pointed enough to pierce the fabric of reality and allow the light to shine through. Light from within and from without.

Always with this work, it comes back to truth. Nearly thirty years ago, when I started this journey, I made a commitment to myself that I would always tell myself the truth. This work I continue to do not only opens other people’s hearts  to my truths, it opens my own. My words are primarily for me … figuring out what is going on, discerning patterns, seeking and finding light.

I must open my own heart to the blaze of truth first. I must be fearless. I must trust.

Impeccability Needs No External Validation

When I read these words … Impeccability Needs No External Validation … in the Gene Keys literature for this Siddhi of 62 it was music to my ears!! It was light for my eyes to see. That false prize of external validation had me trapped in its clutches for so much of my life. Always performing, always seeking approval, always pinning my worth to what other people thought of me.

Impeccability needs none of that. Impeccability wears her scarlet feathered crown purely for her own sake, no one else’s. Impeccability says, I am perfect just the way I am. I am impeccably perfect and I am imperfect … get over it!

My imperfections are merely the cracks that let more light in and out.

I glimpse this Siddhi sometimes. I see a flash of my own scarlet feathers, and they bring me so much joy that I truly don’t give one single fuck what other people think of me!

When I truly need no external validation, then I am completely free to be myself, and when that happens, the dam bursts and my light and jewels flood out. 

And I am free.

Free to soar and swoop.

Free to be me.

Free to plummet to the earth and free to fly as high as I want to.

Utter Surrender into Every Action is Perfection

Surrender is the travelling companion of trust, and trust is a muscle that all of this inner work is growing inside me. Trust requires surrender. Surrender requires trust. A symbiotic relationship that bears the fruit of perfection, of Impeccability.

Even if the answers don’t fit the norm and mark me as different to untrained eyes, I know that following the path of trust and absolute surrender is the only way to achieve unity, oneness, connection and the truest, deepest love.

The Siddhi of your Attractor field is helping you to expand your capacity for love. What does the highest essence of my Gene Key line teach me about love?

Sage’s Golden Path Retreat

If the 62nd Siddhi brings the understanding that every cell within the universe is a Divine word, then to be in my Siddhi is not only speaking divine words of love, but also living them. Love vibrates inside my cells, it vibrates through my words and my thoughts.

Love is my beating heart. Love is the air that I breathe, the steps that I walk. Everything is love.

I am love. It’s so hard to keep remembering that, when one lives in a world of chaos. But if I do remember, then I can lean into that ecstatic nature of my Line 6 and revel in love. Yes, there is chaos all around, but in my heart is the ecstatic playground of the child. In my heart I must hold the impeccable vision that all is love.

Words Emerge Directly from the Void, Naked and Pure

(A quote from the Sage’s Golden Path Retreat)

Words emerging from the Void … Wow! This is how I feel when I write. I do not “think” words, then put them on the page. I pick up my pen, not knowing what words will come.

I think writing, my writing, is a species of mediumship.

Virginia Woolf

For me, this Siddhi of Impeccability is the absolute surrender of my mind, so that the true intelligence of my being can flow from me in words of love.

Love is the only word you need to know, in order to write the greatest story of your life.

Love is the water of life; receive it in thy heart and soul.

Rumi

The Gene Keys talk of “Divine Cosmometry” … the language of perfection. Divine Cosmometry is the manifestation of Impeccability in which your every movement and breath becomes an emanation of the pure light. 

Imagine reaching that Siddhic state, so that all that emanated from you was love and light, and all you brought to the world was love and light. You would need for nothing. There’d be no agendas, no persecution, no inequality.

Every word would be equal because every word would be love.

Every life would be equal because every life would be love personified.

All is exactly as it should be, in all of us. If I embody the truth of this Siddhi then I can never feel separate again for do we not all love?

We are all just one great word … love.

All is Exactly as it Should Be

The Siddhi of Impeccability … All is exactly as it should be, in you and in everyone else. The embodiment of this truth leads to ultimate peace. You have crossed the great divide in the throat and can never again return to the illusion of separation.

The Gene Keys

This understanding of the 62nd Gene Key feels profound and such a perfect piece of the puzzle to access now, today, as I prepare to move into the IQ, EQ and SQ spheres. In my teenage years I felt the pain of separation so deeply. I felt alone, isolated, abandoned. I was adrift in a turbulent sea, with no land in sight and no anchor to drop.

It feels comforting to know that all is exactly as it should be. It feels comforting to know that all has always been exactly as it should have been.

I do not need to fear the shaky ground or the choppy waters, for I am safe.

In coming to understand this 62nd Siddhi of Impeccability, I have had glimpses of what it is like to cross the great divide of my throat, as Richard Rudd calls it; I have sipped the nectar of finding my words and bringing voice to them.

How perfect that I have 62.6 here in my Attraction and 31.6 in my Core Wound! The bookends of my Venus stream are two powerful Gene Keys that teach me how to use language for the good of all, including myself! Two Gene Keys that are inextricably linked, that teach me I am not, in fact, separate.

I am one with the whole. I am complete unto myself.

I am love and I bring love. This is why I am here … to bring voice to the love that lives at the heart of every being.

I cannot say it better than Richard … I have “entered the language of light and I am here to see the impeccable beauty of being” … and so it is my duty to live it, to sing it out in my own words.

I have glimpsed this Siddhi and I am here to speak the impeccable truth that love is all you ever need.

All of the photographs I’ve used in this essay feature sunrises … the Siddhi of Impeccability is all about the language of light after all! There are shots from Wiltshire and Devon, and one from my time in Ireland. There’s also a photograph of a couple of cheeky woodpeckers in my garden, because the Dream Arc creature for the Siddhi of 62 is Woodpecker!

You can see more of my photographs on my Flickr page.