I am currently working in the Pearl Sequence of my Gene Keys Golden Path. This is the final part of the journey, and I have just stepped into working with my Brand sphere.

Our Brand is how we project our inner essence out into the world, it is our authentic expression.

This is my second time through my whole Golden Path, and again and again on this voyage of self-discovery, I have come to see that there are two sister themes that run through my entire chart, indeed, through my entire life … Love and Trust.

I have a sneaking suspicion that these run through everyone’s charts, like golden threads that hold the tapestries of our lives together … love and trust … these are our greatest treasures.

Now, I could write whole books full of articles about love (and I probably will!!), but today I’d like to talk to you about how trust is the foundation of the work that I do on myself. It is the container for the work. It is the vital ingredient.

Basically, trust, for me, is everything!

The Key Insight in So Many of My Gifts

For me, “trust” was the key insight in so many of my Gene Keys Gifts.

Love, trust, safety, wisdom; they are all so intricate, and so interconnected. I think the essence of all that I have been learning on this journey is that there truly is an infinite well inside me that holds an unending supply of love, trust, safety and wisdom.

My Radiance Gift of Authority

My Authority sounds like a clear bell, rung in the midst of chaos. My Authority is me, standing in my own truth, and saying, this is me, I fucking count, I matter. I know what I’m talking about.

My Authority is what you hear when they read my words her in the Cauldron. It doesn’t matter if your stories are completely different from mine, it doesn’t matter if your struggles are not anything like mine; you hear my truth in my words, you hear the clear tone of Authority, and you know that you can trust what I say.

But much more important, I think that when I stand in my Gift of Authority, I allow other women to trust themselves. On some level, they hear my clarion call and they understand that this is the message … TRUST YOURSELF. BE YOURSELF!

My Attraction Gift of Precision

How does Precision sound? This is my ability to weave words. To shape them. To say the right thing. My Precision is the sword of light that cuts through the bullshit! My Precision is surefooted, she comes out to play when I trust myself, when I step onto the solid ground of my being.

My Precision sounds like love in words, love OF words. My Precision is my delight in language. My Precision loves my Gene Keys! All those glorious words to describe aspects of myself. My Precision is how I present myself to the world. My Precision is my trust that I will say the right thing at the right time, for the right person to hear it.

My Purpose Gift of Resourcefulness

Oh, how I love this Gift! “Resourcefulness” sounds like such a prosaic word; it’s not lofty and divine like some of the Gifts. But it is an incredible Gift to have, and I love that it is my Purpose!

My Resourcefulness is imaginative and inventive. My Resourcefulness is the seat of my insight, my understanding.

My Resourcefulness has a strong voice … she says, I KNOW THE WAY, TRUST ME, FOLLOW ME, I CAN TAKE YOU THROUGH.

My Resourcefulness is my inner guide. She’s always got a light in the dark places; she’s always got the right tools and supplies in her backpack. I can trust her. She knows the way, even when it’s really fucking dark. She’s always got a plan, she’s ingenious and inventive. She’s my inner MacGyver! She can take shit and turn it into gold. She’s an alchemist, a witch, a wizard. She’s amazing, my Resourcefulness. She got me here, and she will take me wherever I need to go.

If you want to hear the theme tune of my Resourcefulness, then listen to Rising Appalachia sing Make Magic! You can listen to it in our Cauldron of Crones Spotify Playlist.

But Trust Is Woven Through My Entire Chart, Not Just These Keys

I trust.

I trust myself.

I trust Life.

I trust this unfolding journey.

I trust the Gene Keys’ map.

I trust the people in my life.

I trust that I have all the answers I need, they are inside me, swirling in that great well of wisdom.

I would never have believed I could feel this level of trust. I’ve been so hurt and used by people in the past, that’s why there were so many damn walls up, that I ever would have believed this level of trust could be available to me.

But here it is, like a golden treasure, sitting in my heart.

I am safe to trust.

Self-Belief

Trust has led to a great well of self-belief opening in me. So much of my life was spent beating myself up for the mistakes I’ve made, the bad choices, the unsuitable relationships, the wasted time. I believed myself to be a fucking failure, who was just not good enough, in any area of life or aspect of personality. I had a very low opinion of myself, and negative self-talk was the norm. I would call myself stupid, lazy, a bad mother, a useless person. I would call myself all the critical names that I’ve been called in the past, by people who were operating from their Shadows. And I would fucking believe it.

I don’t believe all that bad stuff about myself any more. I believe in myself. I believe I am a good person. I believe I have so much strength and goodness in me. Of course, there are still moments of self-doubt, moments where the fear is there again, but now I have this incredible tool, the Gene Keys; now I have this language and this new way of looking at myself, so that I can catch those doubts and those fears pretty quickly. I can see the Shadows at play, and I can trust myself enough to know that the Shadows hold the seeds of the Gifts.

The Beautiful Unraveling of Past Conditioning

So, let’s go back to that Purpose Gene Key of mine … Gene Key 48 is The Shadow of Inadequacy, the Gift of Resourcefulness, and the Siddhi of Wisdom, and it is all about the Void, the great Unknown, the deep, fathomless well of wisdom inside each of us. You don’t need to have 48 in your Profile. Heck, you don’t even need to know anything about the Gene Keys. But I can assure you that you do have a well of infinite wisdom inside you.

But don’t worry if you don’t know how to access it yet; don’t worry if you doubt it or if you doubt yourself. It takes time, it takes patience, and there is no rush. You start the journey when you start the journey. You find the well when you find the well. Just trust that there is a well of wisdom inside you, and that trust will bring you there.

Richard Rudd puts it like this …

As you learn to trust your not knowing, life resolves itself effortlessly and beautifully and a natural process of deconditioning takes place inside you.

Boom!! 🤯❤️‍🔥

Trusting My NOT Knowing

Trusting my not knowing frees up such a lot of mental and emotional bandwidth. There is so much busy-ness in my head when I try to control everything. I’m so busy trying to make sure that I know everything, do everything, keep all the plates spinning so that nothing gets left chance, because chance is always throwing curve balls, and leaving things to chance might mean that something will go horribly wrong.

All that busyness means I miss the moment.

All that trying to know everything means that I miss the everyday treasures and joys that are always there.

But here’s the thing … I KNOW that it’s okay to trust the not knowing!

Don’t I do it every morning when I sit at my journal, with my pen in my hand and the blank pages in front of me?!! I don’t know where my words will take me. I don’t have a plan, a known outcome, in mind.

Working with my Gene Keys is a daily invitation into the unknown for me. I may know the question or prompt that my wonderful guide, Hayley Curtis, has given me when I read it, but I have no idea of what the answer is. I simply pick up my pen, and I start to write.

Revealing the Obvious

I drop into the well of not knowing every single time that I open my journal and start to write. Nearly 30 years of doing this has taught me that it is safe to dive into the well of not knowing because eventually the pearl of wisdom will be waiting for me.

Why has it taken me so long to realise that?? It’s so fucking obvious! Why has it taken me so long to realise that I am trusting my not knowing every time I write?!

How Do I Move That Trust Out To The Rest Of My Life?

How do I stop the panic that rises when I don’t feel completely in control; like I don’t know all the answers?

By pausing.

By taking more moments in my day where I pause, I breathe, I soften into myself.

Stop the hurly burly of life. Stop the incessant chatter that’s my mind’s background music. Stop panicking and projecting fears into an unknown future.

It’s Okay Not to Know

I don’t know! And that’s okay.

I don’t know what the future will bring. And that’s okay.

I DO know that in each moment, I am okay.

And it’s okay that I don’t know what the future will bring. I don’t need to be afraid. Being afraid won’t change the future, it will simply rob me of the present moment.

So, I shall trust my not knowing.

I shall trust that each and every moment is perfect, and that I don’t need to KNOW EVERYTHING!

When I don’t know, then I am given the opportunity to explore and find out.

When I don’t know, I don’t need to worry about not knowing; I simply need to trust that the answer WILL come, at the exact moment I need to hear it.

It All Comes Back to Trust

So, it’s clear that the secret to moving beyond the reach of the 48th Shadow can be found in a single word - trust.
Life invites you to begin by trusting the Shadow frequency itself which means that you have to enter into your fears.
Richard Rudd, The Activation Sequence

How do I access the Well from a place of safety?

How do I dive into the darkness and not lose myself?

Whenever I have felt a little lost with this Key, like I was missing a vital step, I would wonder if maybe I was just being impatient.

Then I would remember that embracing the 48th Key is a lifetime’s work.

Maybe I’m being a bit hard on myself to think I’m going to come up with all the answers in such a short time!!

Maybe I should just do that thing that keeps coming up for me on this journey … maybe I should trust the Well.

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Look out for the next article in this series, Why Trust is So Important on This Inner Journey, for an even deeper dive into Gene Key 48 and its mysterious treasures. In the meantime, I’ll leave you with this …

The Dream Arc animal for Gene Key 48 is The Whale, who invites us to discover our key to ‘All-Encompassing Resourcefulness’ …