The Gene Keys teachings tell us that we are here to learn from the challenges of our Shadows. I am working with my Purpose Gene Key as part of the The Sage’s Golden Path Retreat. My Purpose Gene Key is 48.3, and the Shadow is Inadequacy. Inadequacy is the fear of not having enough, it is the fear of not being worthy enough, and, according to Richard Rudd, it is rooted in uncertainty about the future.
What Deeply Fulfils You … It’s not a question, it’s a statement. It’s an invitation to open yourself up to this Purpose Gene Key. All of the Gene Keys in your chart play important roles in your life. If you’ve read any of my other essays or articles, you may have already realised that Gene Key 48 is my favourite Gene Key. It’s the deepest, it’s the well of Wisdom. It holds everything!! What’s not to love about that?!!
The deeper I go on this inner journey, the more trust I am finding within myself, even when I find that my Gifts are hidden breath layers of self-doubt, beneath layers of inadequacy.
My Gifts are scary, because what if it turns out that I am not good enough to live up to these Gifts … Dynamism, Perseverance, Authority, and this 48th Gift of Resourcefulness? What if I’m just not bloody good enough?