A Travel Essay from the Inner Journey

In the Gene Keys teachings, genius is defined as “the natural manifestation of a human life when it is allowed to expand without force.”

When you are working with your Life’s Work, this first Gene Key in your Golden Path points to how your inner genius wants to express itself.

The Gene Keys Sage teachings tell us that this is about the “kind of contribution you are here to make … This is not about a job title. It is about how you shine through whatever you do.”

I have Gene Key 39.1 here in my Life’s Work, which is the Gift of Dynamism. The more I work with this Gene Key, the more I can see that my inner genius for Dynamism does shine through in everything I do.

I’m not just talking about the inner work and the passion and enthusiasm I bring to this hugely important part of my life. I’m talking about my whole life.

My Dynamism is there in the passion I bring to my relationship with my husband; and it is present in the love I bring to my close friendships.

I can see it in the enthusiasm I bring to my day job, even though it’s a pretty boring job, that doesn’t, in and of itself, light me up in any way; but I don’t allow that to stop me bringing my light to it.

My genius wants to express itself in joy. My genius wants to express itself in passion and movement and dynamism.

And that is the contribution I make. I lift people, I enthuse people. I shine a light and even though I’m shining that light into my own personal interior, the light is refracted out, so that others can glimpse it and that makes them want to find some light of their own.

Shining a Light and Sharing My Fire

I know that I am not setting people on fire with my light; but rather, I am showing them what fire looks like. I’m showing them the peace and joy you find when you uncover your light.

The inner truth, my inner truth, is full of light. I never used to know that. I thought that the deeper into myself I went, the more darkness I would find. And I have, don’t get me wrong! I have looked honestly at the dark, shadowy places inside me, but I have found that there has always been light there too.

I AM the light. I am the light of my own life. I am my own lighthouse. I am a holder and keeper of light; and I’m damn good at it!

The light that was my love for my husband may have been obscured for the 25 years we were apart (long story!!), but it never went out. That is how fucking bright and infinite my light is. Despite decades of darkness trying to obscure it, my love remained, flickering softly in my deepest recesses.

All of my light and my love is like that … Oh, I just had this exquisite image of a red-haired fire sprite, hopping from black shadow to black shadow inside me, leaving a trail of glowing embers and bright sparks in her wake.

I am the sprite! I am the fire starter and the fire tender.

And one of my greatest fires is the joy of this inner work; the enthusiasm I feel for and bring to this work.

This is my genius, to get down in the basement of my own being, and understand every facet of the machinery that makes up me; taking apart the engine, clearing the pipes, firing myself the fuck up!

As Within, So Without

My Dynamism, my joy-pipe-unblocking, my passion for doing the inner work, all come through in my outer life too. Almost all the jobs I’ve ever had have revolved around me helping other people … from tech support when I graduated, through to running services for older people in rural Ireland … my outer jobs have all revolved around me helping people to unblock things in their lives. Shit! All the jobs for the last six years have even involved having actual plumbing pipes unblocked! That’s fucking wild, when I think about my Guide, Hayley’s description of me as a joy-pipe unblocker! That’s what she told me when I was looking at this Gene Key before … if you have a 39 in your Life’s Work, you’re here to unblock joy pipes, your own and other people’s!!

And I bring Dynamism in all the time, to whatever I am doing. I bring my enthusiasm, even to the most mundane roles. And then I bring my passion to the things I love. I bring my delight into all of my days. I say, out loud, to anyone who’ll listen … I fucking love my life!! … all the time!! I write it in my journal. I emanate it from my being.

The fact that I am a 39.1 … interiority … means that I am able to be passionate and committed. I know what passion and commitment look like, because I practice them every day that I sit down with my journal; and so I am able to mirror them in my outer life.

I think that my great ability to do this internal work, my genius for interiority means that no matter what I have to do to earn my living, I bring a desire to understand things deeply, I bring a desire to get down in the basement, ripping all the pipes out, so that I can get things working better, more efficiently.

Unlocking the Gift and Siddhi

The Gene Keys teach that unlocking the Gift and Siddh of your Life’s Work Gene Key enables you to discover the authentic expression that shines your inner genius out into the world.

Authentic expression, now that is my “noble goal”, as my friend Esther described it. It is what I am doing every day when I write or speak my contemplations. And oh, it is my dream to do more of that. To get paid to write down my authentic expression every day. To get paid to sit with my journal, find nuggets of truth, and then to share them. Ah, that would be a dream come true!

I’m really beginning to explore my authentic expression with this wonderful website that Meghan and I have created. I am finding my authentic voice in our Podcast, Conversations With A Couple Of Crones. The last five months of work that we have put in have been all about building a safe world on the internet, around our authentic expressions in the world.

And now, I am expanding my horizons for my authentic expression. I have put my stake in the ground and said, “Here! Here I am, I am writing the book of my journey. It will be the tale of my Golden Path quest. It will be the story I want to tell.”

I’m so excited about it. I am writing a book. Me!? I am writing a book, and my Beginning of the Journey essay that I wrote as the Sage’s Golden Path opened was the opening for my book.

The rest of this first month, I’ll be fleshing out Chapter One. Then I will keep writing and growing the book as I write and grow myself through this latest Gene Keys journey of mine. And as I do this, I will also be on an exploration to find my authentic style of writing. After all, my authentic expression needs to be wrapped in an authentic style.

I want my writing to be poetic, I want it to ring with meaning. I want it to touch people and move them.

I want this to be a heroine’s quest for truth.

That is what this journey is, after all.

So … What Exactly IS My Genius?

I get glimpses of my true genius when I write, when I allow words to simply flow from my heart onto the page. I see my genius for creativity with my words when I allow my heart and hand free rein. All of the best things I’ve ever written have flowed straight from the well of love inside me, up and out, onto the page.

I don’t ever set out to write a particular thing in a particular way; there is very little of my intellect or mind involved in my process of creation with words. My mind may take in the prompt or statement or question, as I write it in my journal, but then, when I pick up my blue pen, the heart-hand Dynamic Duo takes over and words simply flow. I cannot explain this phenomenon, except perhaps to say it is my unique style of creative flow.

On my vision board above my desk, I have written some of my own wisdom from my Gene Keys chart. For Gene Key 62 I wrote … impeccability means speaking (or in this case, writing) from love, not from logic!

My innate intelligence is where the words that pour into my journals are birthed from. I do not write with logical thoughts from my mind; I allow feelings to bubble up from my heart-mind and then my hand crafts them into words.

My journaling practice is a somatic experience. My journaling practice combines creativity and movement; it comes from body and soul; it comes through my body. And it has a rhythm, a pace, a gait of its own. The way my words flow is more akin to a river than it is to solid earth.

My words are the river that flows over the earth of my being.

This space I create on the page is where my inner child can play; where my innate intelligence can express itself; and where my genius can grow. I stretch myself in these pages. I take myself on a journey into my interior, then spill the treasure onto the page.

And my writing is spontaneous; each word crafting the next, each thought fanning the flames of the next, each concept opening a door to the next, each breakthrough creating the space for the next.

Oh my god, I keep being washed with such a rush of joyful excitement to realise that Richard chose exactly the right word for me … INTERIORITY … I take that word as my own territory now. I walk into the infinite world inside me that the word “interiority” opens the gateway to. I follow the beckoning hand of my truth.

Genius is the natural manifestation of a human life when it is allowed to expand without force.
Richard Rudd

And that statement … Genius is the natural manifestation of a human life when it is allowed to expand without force … could be a motto to live by for a whole life!

If you took that as an attitude to how you live your life, then you would need no other wisdom. This speaks to those two core values of the Gene Keys … Gentleness and Patience. My guide, Hayley, often uses the words,“gentle it into the form”.  That is what I have to do with my natural genius, with my authentic expression … gentle it out into whatever form it wants to take … is it words on a page? Is it spoken words? Is it a handcrafted book to hold my words? Is it all of these and more?

Yes!

And I do not need to force any of it. I do not need to force my creativity. I can gently allow it to grow. I can gently allow the words to flow.

And most importantly of all, I can treat myself with gentleness. I can allow myself to grow at my natural pace. I don’t need to force myself to write. If there are days when the words aren’t flowing, I can be gentle with myself and allow myself to rest. I cannot force my words onto the page nor out into the world.

Patience is the Sister to Gentleness

Here’s what I wrote when I was exploring “patience” in a Wizardly Words on Wednesdays post …

Patience holds my hand and says, it’s okay that you’ve been doing this work for so long but still feel like you’re at the beginning.

Patience says, this is part of the natural cycle of life.

Patience says, this work is about the journey and that is absolutely okay if it takes a lifetime to make this journey back to yourself.

Patience tells me there is no rush. There is no quick fix. There is a whole lifetime of journeying ahead of me.

Patience tells me that my answers will come in the stillness of my inner well, the void that lives at the heart of me.

I have to stop trying to rush ahead.

Patience tells me that I do not have to force myself to expand and grow because there is all the time in the world. Patience knows that this is a life-long journey that I am on. I may spend the rest of my life writing just one book! But I will spend the rest of my life writing my story.

If this is a life-long journey, it is made of patience. And I can be patient, with myself, and with this work.

Why would I want to rush to the end? Why would I want to be writing my final chapter when there is so much joy to be had in writing this moment?

I am patiently allowing this story of me to unfold, one word, one page, one breakthrough, one bright flash of light at a time.

This Gene Key I have here in my Life’s Work … 39.1 … is all about finding your own treasure, buried in the roots of your everyday life, and for some reason, as I was putting this essay together, I kept thinking about trees and the deep root systems that trees have. Hence why all the photographs I’ve used with this post are of trees!

All of the photographs were taken close to my home, here in Wiltshire in the South West of England.