My Journey Through My Gene Keys Golden Path, 2025

Ah, my year of travelling my Gene Keys Golden Path in the company of the most wonderful women, my Devoted sisters, has come to an end. We have had our closing ceremony; we have shed so many tears, and we have sighed, and we have laughed. I am so deeply grateful to Hayley Curtis for creating this journey for us, a group of women from all over the world, all with different Gene Keys profiles and very different lives. Yet through her loving guidance and unending support, she has guided us together along this Golden Path.

We have stepped into our Pearl Gene Key, the end of the Golden Path journey.

The Pearl and its wisdom brings integration to all eleven spheres of the Golden Path.

Richard Rudd, in The Pearl course, suggests the following … “As you contemplate this final Sphere, you might like to track gently back through your journey and pinpoint your key insights. Is there something particular you have learned? Can you distil the essence of that into a single sentence or a few sentences?”

And that is how I spent my final week of this glorious Devoted journey; I sat with my journal for five days, for many hours, and I moved through each sphere and pathway that I have dug so deeply into, over the last year. But me being me (and indeed, who else can I be?), I wrote a lot more than “a few sentences”!! This is a very long long-form article!! You might need a pot of tea for this one.

Meghan has written a companion article … make that two pots of tea!!

Life’s Work 39.1

(Shadow of Provocation, Gift of Dynamism, Siddhi of Liberation)

I am here to unblock joy pipes.

My Line 1 takes all the parts of my Gene Keys profile and makes them into a whole creation.

I am here to tell stories.

Dynamism is my enthusiasm for life and for this work.

My joy is to make other people feel stable.

Liberation is a childlike freedom from all the mental constructs we layer upon ourselves.

My attitude to time really started changing here. I used to be afraid of it running out, but suddenly I started to bend it and shape it to create more of it for myself … pockets of time appeared and I was able to lose myself in my contemplations.

I am EVERYWHEN!!

The Pathway of Challenge

Understanding that this Pathway, this loop of Provocation and Struggle, has been the elemental challenge of my entire life was something that I already knew, because this is the fourth time that I have travelled this path.

What happened this time round was that I realised I had broken out of that loop!

My challenge now is to keep being the real, authentic me, so that I do not slip back into old ways of thinking … I am more than capable of meeting this challenge! I cannot UNsee the breaking of the loop. I cannot UNlearn the beauty of moving from complexity to simplicity, which has been fundamental to me breaking free of my old, corrupted programming.

Evolution 38.1

(Shadow of Struggle, Gift of Perseverance, Siddhi of Honour)

“Greatness is born in the trenches of challenge” … this could be the motto on my coat of arms!! My evolution key was made for the trenches!!

In this key, the shifting attitude to time continued, as I found myself slowing down even more.

All of my emotional decisions relating struggle in my “old” life were made by a heart-broken ten-year-old. She’s not in the emotional driving seat any more.

Dynamism and Perseverance are a dance … Dynamism swirls with joy, and Perseverance keeps me stable … so I swirl, but I never lose my footing.

These two Programming partners are all about movement and balance, energy and stamina. They can DO anything; they can BE anything.

My work here is in how I respond to Struggle and suffering. I am not afraid of it; I am not faint-hearted. I was born with the gift to take challenges and shape them into something strong.

Perseverance is a Superpower, where I respond from truth and not from fear; I turn obstacles into opportunities for higher growth.

I no longer look outside for empowerment. I believe in my own power. I tap into my own wisdom.

Line 1 Self and Empowerment are the starting blocks, they are the journey, they are every waypoint on this quest. They are the destination.

Seeing my struggle as a way to serve others changes everything … my ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING.

Pathway of Breakthrough

So much broke through … I could write a whole bloody book about it! But I can sum it up in one simple sentence … This whole journey is about trust and safety and love.

Radiance 21.3

(Shadow of Control, Gift of Authority, Siddhi of Valour)

I am the author of my own life. This Radiance Gift of Authority means taking radical responsibility for my life, my actions, and my choices.

In the Shadow of Control, I am deep in the fear of letting go of that control, and in that Shadow, all is darkness.

My Radiance feeds off of light … my consumption of all things must be intentional, for I am here to radiate light … and that means being my natural self, letting my natural light shine.

If I am here to write my own story, then I want it to be a magical, epic tale of love and goodness, joy and wonder, delight and playfulness. I love that Richard says that “the field of miracles and synchronicities is my HOME, my natural rhythm”!

And in this Gene Key, the slowing down continued, and the patience, which I had set as an intention at the beginning of the year, continued to bloom.

I asked myself … How can I witness my Radiance growing without the need for my energy levels to change at all? This is a contemplation that I carried with me through the rest of the year.

Total surrender of control completely frees me from all those fears that kept me trapped in the Shadow for so long, and that is what allows me to see that no one and nothing external can take control from me.

Love and courage blossomed in this Gene Key. Valour, the Siddhi, represents surrender of control to trust, and where there is absolute trust, there is no more fear.

The Pathway of Core Stability

My path through life has been more than mere survival. It has been growth through challenge. It has been evolution through struggle.

My Core Stability is like the tap root of a desert plant … I may be in a barren landscape of no love and no care, which I was for a long time, but my tap root goes deep, deep into the earth, and I continue to grow. I continue to do this inner work. I AM MY OWN EARTH. I HOLD ALL THE NUTRIENTS I NEED. My Core Stability shows me that.

My Core Stability stands on a firm foundation of self-love, self-belief, trust and safety.

My Core Stability comes from knowing that only I can give those things to myself.

Purpose 48.3

(Shadow of Inadequacy, Gift of Resourcefulness, Siddhi of Wisdom)

“There is no bypassing the Purpose in your ordinary life in the search for Purpose in the extravagant.”

Richard Rudd

The breakthrough that I am already living my Purpose of Resourcefulness and Wisdom has been huge for me.

My Purpose in life is to be wholly and authentically me. That’s it. NATURALNESS.

I am trusting the unknown, every step of the way, I am trusting that the well of wisdom inside me is infinite.

The biggest breakthrough was realising that I am carrying a magical backpack with everything I need inside it!

Working in my Purpose sphere this time round, I saw for the first time that my heritage was exactly perfect for me to become the woman I am meant to be.

In my Purpose sphere I saw that in order to access the Siddhi of Wisdom, I must trust completely in my physical body. It is the vessel that holds everything.

My Purpose is to feel everything, to heal myself, to take that healing out into the world in my words and actions.

I am writing my own story.

I am one wise, resourceful motherfucker!!

Purpose in the Venus Stream 48.3

Oh, this was where I truly dropped into the understanding that I have to show up with a consistently open heart, that I have no choice but to continue to open my heart even wider.

I loved the description of the Venus Stream as the Alchemist’s journey! (Thank you to Jesse Chesnutt for that!!)

Opening my heart to the unknown, allows the feminine mother energy to come in. It takes away judgement and replaces it with curiosity.

Realising that I get to harvest my relationships for purpose and inner transformations was huge and pretty mind-blowing … there is no separation between me doing the inner work and me being in relationships … they are both facets of the same jewel.

I realised too that I was truly starting to breathe deeply. Shit! Only took me 62 years!!

And oh, my Line 3 enthusiasm for life is contagious! I am spreading joy all over the place!!

The Pathway of Dharma

Everything is perfect! THAT was a monumental breakthrough for me … it had been building for a long time, but it broke over me in such a delicious wave of understanding here in the Pathway of Dharma.

I learned the difference between Dharma, which is a sweet, clear note, and Drama, which is white noise that drowns out my truths, and I have a choice as to which of those attitudes I have.

What if life wasn’t about getting what you want? What if life was actually about becoming who you were meant to become?  Wow! That changes EVERYTHING!

I learned about respect in relationships here too. I don’t need to ram my growth, my breakthroughs, my excitement, down people’s throats. That’s not my job. I must respect where they are in their journey, and it may be very different from where I am, and that is okay.

Oh, there is so much ease in accepting one’s dharma. You stop fighting the current, and you accept and allow dharma to flow over you. It’s blissful to float in that river!

Attraction 62.6

(Shadow of Intellect, Gift of Precision, Siddhi of Impeccability)

Here I learned about the desire for home, the desire for unity, the desire to awaken. And in the same breath, I learned that I must let go of the illusion of desire. Oh, the paradoxes of this Gene Keys work!

My own particular desire for home is all about safety … I used to think that if I was getting all the answers right, if I accumulated enough knowledge, then I’d be safe.

This is where I had a huge breakthrough, triggered by a very simple statement … “EVERYTHING IS A ME PROBLEM”.

To move into the Gift of Precision, I must strip off my armour of facts and leap off the cliff, with my naked, vulnerable truth all that is wrapped around me. I AM ME!

“The female version of Precision is not about exactness, it’s about harmony”.

Precision is all about love, it’s about finding the natural order and harmony of the universe through that love.

Here was where I truly dropped from my head to my heart.

I learned that there is power in returning non-love with love, that in fact, it is all that I can do. I don’t need to defend my position. I am safe. I am safe to feel what I feel, I am safe to be me.

My Line 6 here is all about my mission. I realised that my creativity is how I drop down from the Shadow of Intellect in my head, into the Gift of Precision in my heart.

The breakthrough of my Attraction Gene Key is the understanding that to be impeccable is to speak from love. No ego. Just truth. Just trust. Just safety.

The Pathway of Karma

The Pathway of Dharma sets the tone; the sphere of my Attraction calls in the relationships that I need; and the Pathway of Karma offers me the opportunity to take the next lessons along the evolutionary ladder. In every situation I will need to hold unconditional love as my yardstick.

This Pathway calls in self-responsibility. It also brings my attention to the chemistry of all of my relationships, which includes courtesy for the other, and radical honesty with myself.

IQ 12.2

(Shadow of Vanity, Gift of Discrimination, Siddhi of Purity)

I had a massive breakthrough here, as I realised that my IQ years were all about PROTECTOR ENERGY, and defensiveness. This allowed me to wrap my inner teenager in so much love and let her see the brilliance of her mind.

I saw the stark separateness that the Shadow of Vanity brings into my life. My poor teenage self was so terrified that other people could take away her power.

But, and here’s the really important lesson that I am learning over and over again … an open heart doesn’t need to be defended.

My Line 2, that Brilliant Mind, is so passionate, it is explosive with brilliance.

In my IQ sphere I took full ownership of my karma and oh, the freedom that brought me.

The victim-me was transmuted into the woman of compassion. The punchbag-me was transmuted into the woman of forgiveness.

I found that my Gift of Discrimination is all about open-minded thinking. It is, like all of my Gene Keys, about love and authenticity.

I used to be caught in the prison of my past …. Walls and bars made of the stories I told myself, based on false beliefs. But now, I am in the driving seat!

And what I find here is boundless love.

In this sphere I realised that I had been a wounded teenager being raised by an ungraduated, wounded teenager. I realised that in truth, I hadn’t been parented at all.

And this breakthrough opened the floodgates.

I am NOT separate … feeling alone, unloved and unloveable had been like a black vein of pain running through my life … the Siddhi of Purity cracked it open. I am freeing myself from the shackles of the past.

I love my teenage self. She was so fucking strong. She survived in a landscape barren of love, but it didn’t dry her out.

I am who I am meant to be, and I grew out of that teenager. She was fucking worthy of love.

Now, I get to forgive myself.

The Pathway of Intelligence

In this Pathway I came to understand that intelligence is actually a measure of love, not of how much I know, or how many facts I have accumulated.

This Pathway is about striking a balance between my heart and my head.

The breakthrough here was that for me, this balance is a dance, it is fluid. I am safe to trust my intuitive body. I am safe to open my heart.

Unconditional love DOES live inside me.

I AM a good person, and I have so much love.

This Pathway invites me to drop my defences even more, in the deep understanding that my worth never changes.

Life is so different when you understand the universal truth that in every heart there beats a pulse of pure love and worth.

EQ 65.5

(Shadow of Confusion, Gift of Imagination, Siddhi of Illumination)

Recognising that Confusion, the Shadow here, can actually be an emotional superpower was explosive! If I accept the Confusion, I can allow for ANYTHING to emerge from it.

In my deep exploration of these EQ years, I saw that I wasn’t emotionally supported by my mum after my dad died.

The mother wound taught me that I was separate.

She was quicksand when I needed solid ground.

But she was a wounded child who created a wounded child, and during these years of no parenting, which led me to shut down pieces of myself. In particular, I shut down my Gift of Imagination. It was capped by a mother who constantly told me to “stop showing off” … in other words, stay silent, stay invisible.

I am unpicking those stories my mum told me that I had to be quiet and small to be acceptable.

I felt so much sadness and compassion for my mum. She was steeped in pain and grief.

I was a special girl, who didn’t know it at the time, but who gets to know it now, to believe it now. To feel it now.

My imagination is my void. My void is my imagination. I don’t need to fear it.

Holding space for all these emotions without allowing them to crush me.

I rediscovered childhood wonder and playfulness.

“Dear ten year old me … you are magnificent!”

The Pathway of Love

This Pathway opened me up to the tenderness of the universal mother. It is all about tenderness and softening and opening up to more love.

All those years of struggle and inadequacy, constriction and anxiety, were leading me here … to the deep understanding that love IS my natural state, and I have a deep, deep wells of it. There is a vast ocean of love inside me, which is fed by my connection to other people. Love is at the heart of my life, and it allows me to drop the constant need for validation.

SQ 55.5

(Shadow of Victimisation, Gift of Freedom, Siddhi of Freedom)

This is the sphere of living a mythical life! This is the sphere where my inner warrior truly embarked upon her epic quest. When I reached my SQ, I saw that everything was leading here. Now that I have reached my Pearl I see just how true that statement is. My SQ truly IS central to my whole life, my whole being. At my heart beats freedom!

The wild, free child of my SQ years still lives inside me.

To live fully, I must open to love.

The external world does not dictate my mood.

The external world does not define me.

My inner world is rich and abundant with love. I do not look to anyone external to give me the love I deserve. I do not look externally for safety.

I can follow my BLISS. I can move deeper into life.

And in doing so, I transform the mundane into the miraculous.

Every story is about finding home. My whole journey of the inner work, from the Artist’s Way in 1998, to right now, has been about me coming home to myself.

I AM MY OWN HOME.

I felt a gaping hole where mother love should be. I felt a disconnect from family.

Following my bliss has meant following threads back to their source, untangling them from other people’s and seeing that MY threads create the most glorious tapestry that shows my epic journey, that tells the story of my wounds, but also of my healing.

Freedom is unlearning all of my old beliefs that I held about myself. Unlearning is a stripping away of knowledge and information, and unravelling of the stories that have bound me.

Strip it all away and I stand naked, an innocent child with no expectations that someone/something is going to come and “fix” me. I don’t need fixing, because I’m free of preconceptions, I’m free of other people’s ideas of what freedom is.

I’m swimming naked in the river of life.

Freedom is what I find on the pathway of letting go … I let go of the yearning for my mother’s love and attention and validation. I WAS unseen, and I felt so unseen for years.

But I don’t need to be seen, I don’t need anyone’s validation. I have all the love I need inside me. I’m wild and free as thistledown. I’m as solid as the mountains. I’m free.

Freedom isn’t in the external world.

Freedom is here, in my heart.

I’m floating free on the river of life AND sinking my roots into the earth AND soaring with eagles.

My whole Gene Keys journey has been an unfolding of love, and I am lost in the wonder of the world.

I loved the dawning understanding that ecstasy is not an extreme state of joy, but the result of sadness and joy making love inside me … god, I love that statement of Richard’s!

The SQ Gift is the flavour of creativity that supports me.

And of course, right here in the SQ is where A Cauldron of Crones was born.

Freedom is the flavour of my love.

Oh, this was such a joyous Gene Key to dive into, I mean, the land of story and myth is where I live!

Freedom sounds like birdsong and wind in leaves, water tumbling over rocks, and waves.

Freedom is tenderness.

This sphere taught me to follow my heart.

The Pathway of Realisation

This is the Pathway of Absorption, this is the lighthouse that guides me home, this is the ultimate remembering!

I have realised that I don’t need external validation to be worthy.

The big breakthrough here was the understanding that I can’t heal that which I haven’t taken responsibility for!

I am worthy.

I am enough.

I have an endless ocean of love inside me.

I AM love.

I AM safe.

I am here, doing this work, for a reason.

If I tap into the truth that I AM who I’m meant to be, that I AM love and creativity in human form, that I can’t make a mistake, then I will walk forward in life in absolute trust.

ONENESS isn’t “out there”, it’s inside me. Here is my internal Core Stability, coming from a deep connection to myself.

The Activation Sequence Core Stability is my roots.

The Venus Core Stability is my trunk … it supports life.

You need roots AND trunk to grow the fruit of your life.

Core Wound 31.6

(Shadow of Arrogance, Gift of Leadership, Siddhi of Humility)

And here it is, the Wound of Separation. I realised that I need the medicine of deep connection with myself.

Opening my mind to the concept that I do this work for the whole and nut just myself was huge.

No matter what suffering, what dharma we have had to journey through, none of it matters when we melt into the sea of knowing that all love was inside us all along.

IF I GET IT WRONG, THEN I AM WRONG … this was such a massive breakthrough for me when Hayley said this to me about this Gene Key 31. It actually cut straight through to the heart of my Core Wound, and I saw EVERYTHING in that one moment. If I heal this, then I will be healing it for all of us.

Oh, the patience it has taken to get me here!

Diving into my Core Wound has been all about integration … I love all of me, I accept all of me, and oh my god, I want this feeling for everyone, I want everyone to feel the interconnectedness of all beings the way I feel it here in my core Wound.

Here in the Core Wound, we are required once again to give ourselves radical honesty.

All Arrogance is based on insecurity. So, my Core Wound makes me look deep inside and ask myself, how can I feel secure?

Gene Key 31 encases me in a world of language, but what that does is create the illusion of separateness. “I am not only feeling I’m not good enough, but I’m petrified of being SEEN as not good enough.”

I need to let the pain in.

My greatest creative impulse lives here … SHARE MY VOICE, SHARE MY CREATIVITY.

My life matters.

My story matters.

My wounding matters.

I am being my natural self.

I am telling my story.

I am being honest.

I am leading with my heart.

There is nothing more important than learning to be myself.

I get to use my love of language to help people. Feminine leadership. Heart first.

I must love and care for myself … that is where my leadership begins.

The Pearl Sequence

Moving into the Pearl Sequence, we are invited to contemplate the essential and to really look at our definition of prosperity.

I found that the power of my aloneness is the font of my strength, but it doesn’t isolate me.

The first breakthrough of my Pearl is that I get to boldly embody my passion.

My Vocation invites me to dare to be myself.

My Vocation is to share my voice.

My success is measured by me showing up.

If I were to wait on the edge of the cliff until I KNEW I was safe, I would spend my whole life waiting for life to happen, my wings would be folded so tight that I wouldn’t even know they were there.

I WILL FLY.

What the Pearl sequence invites me into is simply speaking my truth.

All my new definitions of prosperity … love, trust, safety, connection, creativity … all bloomed here. And oh, I am so rich.

What is the greatest service I can give to life?

Am I giving it now?

Yes, and yes!!

My life has been perfectly designed for this service that I am bringing to the world.

I can’t succeed or fail at being me … I simply AM.

I get to live boldly from my Vocation Gift. I get to love myself, just the way I am.

All I need to do is simply trust life.

My line 6 is the ultimate fucking one-love hippie, but she has a sword strapped to her side and a magical fucking backpack!

I am a truth teller.

I am a vision caster.

I am a Warrior of Light and Love.

Vocation 31.6

(Shadow of Arrogance, Gift of Leadership, Siddhi of Humility)

Leadership is me being my natural self.

Leadership frees up my throat chakra.

All this inner work has to be more than just for me.

My Line 6 tells me I am meant to share this work for the good of all.

This is work that simply doesn’t stop.

My Line 6 takes me on a journey from Separation to Care to Philanthropy.

This is a long game, and I have the perfect chart and I have walked the perfect road to get here.

I loved the shift in energy here from water to fire, from inward to outward focus.

What makes me prosperous is all the love, trust, safety I feel now.

I love and I am loved.

I love my life, my path, my work, my creativity, myself.

I trust life, myself, this work, this path.

I am safe.

Hayley described it as “clear seeing and creative contribution” and that is perfect for how I was feeling as I moved into the Pearl.

The Pathway of Initiative

“Genius is boldness”.

The seed of this boldness was planted in my SQ, when Meghan and I built our website, and it was nurtured and tended through our 31 and 22 of Leadership and Graciousness Gene Keys. It was watered by the tears of our Core Wound, warmed by the fire of our Vocation. And then here, on the Pathway of Initiative, we boldly took our Genius out into the world.

I loved the shift in energy from inner reflection to taking the work out into the outward world.

I get to take all the love and safety and enthusiasm out into the world.

“Having the courage to follow the direction of your own feet” … this is what I’m meant to be doing. My Path is virgin. No one else has walked this way. There are no signposts, so I have to follow love.

Genius is boldness sets up a vibration of excitement and anticipation. It brings together all the elements of my journey and builds a fire with them.

Outward action and inner stillness … a balanced cycle. Life becomes a perfect dance of action and rest, service and stillness. The action comes out of the rest; it’s not a reward for it.

The Pathway of Initiative moves me out of victimhood.

I am not a victim. Have I not learned that through this work? I was only a victim when I thought I was. Change my attitude and the victimhood slips away.

Change my attitude and victimisation turns into Freedom.

Change my attitude and the fear of what others might think of me slips away, to be replaced with the worthiness I feel for myself.

Change my attitude and the constriction becomes the expansion of acceptance.

My highest service to the whole is to take all that I am learning out into the world, to share my story, my triumphs, my wounding, and my healing.

My love is greater than my fear.

It was on the Pathway of Initiative that Travel Essays from the Inner Journey was born.

Culture 25.2

(Shadow of Constriction, Gift of Acceptance, Siddhi of Universal Love)

The Vocation is inviting me into deep inner reflection of the truth of my Gift of Leadership. The Culture sphere is when I take it out into the world. The Culture is where I walk out into the world wearing my cloak of Leadership, no longer hiding behind the inner work, but stepping boldly into plain sight, and saying, this me, I have wisdom to share, I have stories to tell, I have love to give, I have trust in life.

The Culture is where I walk into the world, wearing my cloak of leadership.

The more I can accept myself and others, the more love will bloom in my life.

I am not doing this work in a vacuum.

Leadership and Acceptance are the Gifts of my Vocation and Culture spheres.

Acceptance allows me the grace to rest. Acceptance knows my limits; it knows that I cannot be all go go go. It knows my body is older and needs time to rest between activities.

Acceptance knows that I need the stillness of my morning journaling to allow the breakthroughs to come and the contemplations to settle.

Acceptance knows I need to rest.

Leadership is the bold outer action. Leadership is the fiery out breath. Leadership is bold, but it is born out of the Acceptance of how much energy I have to give.

Acceptance is a deep sigh.

Leadership is fire

Acceptance is soft and gentle stillness.

Leadership is bold action.

Acceptance is feminine, Leadership is masculine.

But the feminine comes first. She sets the rhythm for the dance. Leadership may take the steps, but Acceptance is what brings the balance.

I love this image of my Acceptance and Leadership dancing together. In an old, patriarchal paradigm, Leadership would be leading and directing the steps, with Acceptance meekly acquiescing to be taken along.

In my new way of thinking, where the feminine comes first, Acceptance knows the energy that is available, it knows how to balance the movement of the steps with the gentle stillness of the internal being. She sways and glides, she intuitively knows where Leadership should step next.

She is the choreographer and Leadership is the dancer who brings her vision to life with movement.

When you’re a victim, you convince yourself that you are powerless, so you allow yourself to stay in the quicksand of hopelessness. You can’t see a way out, so you don’t even start to make your way through. Of course, there ARE times when you make great leaps of understanding, those explosive breakthroughs that catapult you over obstacles. But most of the time, you do it one step at a time. You make the path by walking. You get OUT of the trap you feel the system has closed around you, by boldly walking through it.

“Acceptance carries the seed of love.”

If I am in absolute acceptance of what is, then there is simply no space for poverty consciousness.

The more I open my heart, the less constricted I am by fear.

Accepting life as it is means accepting ALL of it … fear, struggle, death.

Acceptance of self. This Culture Gift may just be the greatest Gift in my whole chart; the Gift out of which all other Gifts are birthed. I accept myself, therefore I am not afraid to step out in boldness. I accept myself therefore it doesn’t matter what other people think of me. I accept myself so I am able to accept my Gift of Leadership. I accept myself, therefore I am able to love myself.

The Pathway of Growth

Success means doing what I love, being happy, being fulfilled.

Every step on my path has led me here.

Seeing my personal growth and the growth of my service as a garden was a beautiful and perfect analogy.

If I truly want to grow I have to bring all that I’ve learned and all the Gifts into play.

There can be no self-pity or taking things personally.

Growing the passion of my heart brings live, joy, fulfilment. Saying … This is me … I am a creator, I am a writer, I am a woman of passion who is doing the damn work.

If I stop trying to force life or myself to be the way I think it/I SHOULD be, provocations met away and the true inner strength of my Dynamism flows.

ALLOW my life, myself, my prosperity to grow.

I feel like an entirely different person! I feel stronger, like I have truly built that core stability. I’m steady. I’m calmer. I’m happier.

I have found my voice … I talk. I speak my truths out into the world. My own speaking voice is no longer my enemy or the thing that will get me ridiculed or demeaned. I speak with confidence and self-assurance.

I have healed my mother wound. All the bitterness and sadness and anger I used to feel towards my mum has dissipated. I have forgiven her. I have forgiven myself for not being “fixed” yet.

I have formed a partnership with Meghan that is pure synergy.

I’m sharing my service with the world in our website, in GKU, on social media.

I’m not hiding any more. I’m out there. Speaking my truth.

Brand 39.1

(Shadow of Provocation, Gift of Dynamism, Siddhi of Liberation)

And then it is back to where it all began, in my Gene Key 39.

My Brand is ME. It is how I project my inner essence out into the world. It is my authentic expression.

My Dynamism is my enthusiasm for the inner work.

My Dynamism is the exuberance I feel when I share my passion for this work.

My Dynamism is my joy in life personified.

When I am in my Gift of Dynamism, I am a Warrior, I am fighting for my right to love life. I am fighting for everyone’s right to live the kind of lives they want to live.

When I am in my Gift of Dynamism, I am a beacon of light that says it’s okay that we experience suffering, it’s safe to go into the darkness of our own suffering, because love and joy and the sheer enthusiasm for life and doing this work WILL light the way through.

My Gift of Dynamism IS me being my natural self. Laughter bubbles out of me. Joy overflows. Love sparks from my eyes. My words are fire.

To boldly be myself IS to succeed at life. I am learning to breathe into this work.

I breathe therefore I am.

I breathe therefore I am prosperous.

I see my Siddhi of Liberation as the bridge between Provocation and Dynamism.

Self-esteem lives here. Self-esteem lives deep in my belly, anchored and grounded in the truth of my being. It is the bedrock of my core stability.

Liberation. Wow. If Liberation were the only thing emanating out into the world, I’d be like everyone’s fairy god mother! My Liberation would pulse out of me and other people’s hearts would beat in rhythm with mine.

We would all slow down collectively.

We would all just be still inside.

And then we could all feel the Liberation as a heartbeat.

People would be able to see and feel my Liberation … in my straight spine, in my shining eyes, in the openness of my face.

They would hear Liberation in my words and laughter that would flow like a river, filling their ears with the sound of a clear, gentle wind blowing down from a mountain.

They would feel my Liberation in the way I moved in the world, a woman unshackled by false beliefs about herself, free from her wounds because she has sat with them until the pain transmutes into freedom itself.

And they would want to feel that free too.

They would want to liberate themselves from their bonds of pain and suffering and experience the exhilaration of knowing that there is grace in that suffering and in that pain, grace that has the power to release us.

This is what my Brand Gift of Dynamism will allow me to give to the world … Liberation. The freedom for people to be their natural self.

Pathway of Service

My wound of Separation flows into the truth of Acceptance and Universal Love, which is the true unity and communion.

My Dynamism not only takes that Acceptance out into the world, but through my Line 1 it takes it deep into myself; it feeds me. And the gift of that solitary creator energy can then be the thing that reaches out its hand to the Line 6 Separation in my Core Wound to show my wounded self that I could never be separate or alone, even if I tried.

My Service is to take this out into the world.

Pearl 51.3

(Shadow of Agitation, Gift of Initiative, Siddhi of Awakening)

Richard Rudd says, “The Pearl draws your attention away from dreaming about the stars and calls you to find the Siddhis in your everyday existence.”

And this is the whole point of these Gene Keys teachings ….. to learn to love your everyday life.

And I have done that. I do not yearn for a different life. I don’t spend my precious time wishing I were someone else. I love me. I love my mundane, ordinary life. Because it’s not mundane, and it sure as hell isn’t ordinary!!

My life glistens with so many jewels of love.

My ordinary everyday life is stable, grounded, full of resourcefulness and perseverance.

And I am free, oh, I am free to be me!

I looked at all of my Siddhis, and wrote a kind of Prayer to My Golden Path, which I think is a good way to close this particular chapter (all ready for the next one to begin!) …

Liberation

Honour

Valour

Wisdom

Impeccability

Purity

Illumination

Freedom

Humility

Universal Love

Awakening

These are the attributes of a warrior monk.

I fight for love, I fight for everyone’s liberation, not only my own.

But I do it with humility and purity of heart. I don’t do it for accolades; I do it because it is right.

And I am not afraid.

I know how to use the perfect words wisely.

I know how to free joy and bring safety.

I love all.

And the ultimate reward for this battle to bring love into the world is the awakening of my spirit and the opening of my heart.