Lizzie and I birthed this website, A Cauldron of Crones, on October 24, 2025. After its birth I felt a little untethered and certainly quite tired. Not only had we spent two months building our baby, but we are also in a yearlong inner work container, Devoted, with Hayley Curtis walking the Gene Keys Golden Path. It is quite rigorous! So, after our site launched I was in a little distress, quite tired and yet also unfocused and it felt uncomfortable, until I surrendered into the natural “outbreath” of the completion of a creative push. I gave myself grace and let myself sit with the discomfort of doing nothing for a while. And little by little it became more comfortable and nourishing.

In the meantime, we’ve had a change of season here in the mountains of Idaho and I needed to change my summer wardrobe for my winter one. I put away my overalls and brought out my layers. As I donned my winter wardrobe, I recognized I’ve gained weight. The pounds I put on when I had a broken foot all summer didn’t bother me when I was covered in overalls… but my winter stuff is a little tighter than last year. This triggered my body dysmorphia and threatened to trigger my eating disorder (which has been so beautifully balanced all year until now). 

Meanwhile, in Devoted, we are in the sphere of the Culture in the Pearl Sequence and I have Gene Key 40 (a key I have twice in my profile). I was feeling a nudge from Robin, The Dream Arc Vision Bird for GK 40, to accept her challenge… “For forty days, you must imagine yourself as a great soul. You must reinvent your life from the inside out.” It is something I’ve done before… modeling my life after the great one known as Merlin for 40 days. Was it time for me to travel with Merlin again? Another great teacher? Who?

My time simply being, letting myself feel deep relaxation and allowing my creativity to go numb (a term from GK 1) was already working as fertile soil to birth a new creative project.  And during the Gene Key Pulse of 1 (11.5-11.11), my creativity brought forward my next “baby”. I invite you to watch my video as I weave together the suffering I’m feeling with my body hatred and this bright invitation from the Robin into an alchemical art and soul project.

I am Robin. Full of fire am I. Who else would dare pull a bloodied thorn from the head of Christ? And what a transformation that brought to all the bird people! So too must you dig deep inside yourself for the spiritual courage to yourself become a Great One. The ancients called this divine pride - to imagine yourself as a Buddha, a Christ, or any other great teacher, of any gender. This then is my challenge to you. For forty days, you must imagine yourself as a great soul. You must reinvent your life from the inside out. How will you speak, behave? How will you think? What will become important to you? This is the journey I invite you into. - Richard Rudd, The Dream Arc

Welcome to the beginning of my spiritual journey… may we all be touched by Grace over the next 40 days!